Final Thoughts....

Well, this is it. I'm 40 weeks and 3 days pregnant today. Tonight at 8 I go in to the hospital, and when I get out sometime later this week....I'll be a mommy. It's been a long year to say the least, but a good one. I had a pretty emotional day yesterday, I think all of the unknowns are starting to wreak havoc on my nerves. But, I made it through, as I'm sure I will the next several days.

I think reality finally struck last night while I was sitting on my couch alone.....Luci curled up at my feet, tv on and dinner on the stove.....this was it. Last night was the last night that Dan and I would spend as a family of 2 (and a half, with Luci) in this apartment, our first home together. It was the last night of sleep we would get without the intermittent sounds of an infant crying. This is the last morning I will wake up and carry on, thinking of no one but myself and Dan. This is really it. This is it, and we're ready. Tonight I will finally load up the bags that I have been staring at for the last few weeks and when we come home, that car seat that has been sitting empty in my back seat, will be occupied. The swing I have tripped over every morning for the last month will be alive with motion and music, and the pack n play that is overtaking any remaining space in our bedroom will be put to use. My stomach will no longer be in constant motion, and I will no longer have dreams of my baby without being able to see what her face looks like. Its all so surreal. Even as I'm typing this, I can still hardly believe the day is here.

As far as how I'm feeling.....I feel both overwhelmed, and at peace. I'm overwhelmed with emotions, both anxiety and happiness. But at peace with the fact that I know we have done all we can do to prepare for our baby to arrive. Given my unstable emotional state the last few days, I am reminded again how amazing the women in my life are. You have all helped me work through this in my mind and I know you will be here for support once our little angel is here :) I can't wait for her to meet all of you.....she really is one lucky little girl.

Well, this will be my last post on this blog. I plan to start a new one documenting my first year of mommyhood and of course, all of my baby's firsts.....I will definitely keep everyone posted when the waters calm and I am able to write again. Until then, please continue to keep our family in your prayers as we make our way into the next phase.

and just for old times sake.....here's one final pic -

40weeks and 2 days